so bury me in memory..

breathemexin @ 2005-12-30T01:09:00

2005-12-30T06:21:13Z

last time i updated this thing.. woah long time.. alots happend i guess, and im not about to explain it all but im bored so here goes some of it..

well i guess i'll start off with Christmas. Christmas was sucky this year, i was really sick. i got sick like 2 days before christmas. it really sucked i had the flu and strep. well im better now thank god, i still have strep but im taking medicine =]. i got a laptop and a lot of neat other stuff too. its brake from school right now, break*. im too lazy to backspace haha. um its going ok. i was sick the first day, monday, todays wednsday and im fine now. yesterday i hung out home and then went over ericas house. i love her alot. then larry dylon and brendon came over and we chilllled. then i slept over and today erica larry dylon and brendon came to my house for alittle. then erica left and fabbzz came over. they stayed late till like 12 and then karen took them home, it was pretty cool.

then for the personals, i was talking to this boy. for kind of a while now.. he claimed to like me alot and we were even gonna go out at a point, though i didnt want a boyfriend. and as much i say i dont want a boyfriend idk i dont but i do its weird gay. ok so tlaking to him for a while thought everything was good.. then i started liking this other boy, of course me going and effing everything up but whatever you cant help your feelings soo. well i still really wanted to be with the kid but then i find out like yesterday hes liked this other girl.. and yea i got mad.. because like he tells me he loves me and then likes another girl. then i sat back and thought about it realizing i was kind of doing the same exact thing to him.. but the difference was i had the common courtesy to tell him about kind of liking the other kid.. see he didnt tell me anythikng he left that part out, he claims to of only liked her for 2 hours but helies. because he later admitted to liking her/thiknking he liekd her for longer than that. but whatever seriously i could care less now because he obviously didnt care aboiut me as much as i thought he did but its ok.. im over it. sighhhhhh

tomorrow dylons coming back over after he does whatever hahaha to finish painting my room. he seirously has ocd but its okay cause i <3 him. hahaha him and larry just start braking out in paint and since dylons ocd he has to get it like perfect and heslike OK IM COMING OVER TOMORROW AND FINISHING IT haha larry might too, and whoever else.. then he claims to be sleepingover but idk i made plans with michael tomorrow. =] maybe we'll go out to lunch or something idk imiss him alot.ok and i just wrote like a novel and my hands are tired and im watchiing hitch so im gonna stop now, gnightt.

you could be everything i wanted..

if you just gave up on holding back

breathemexin @ 2005-12-04T20:19:00

2005-12-05T01:28:25Z

CHRISTMAS IS COMMING! 21 DAYS!

yayayayayayayayayayayyayaayay!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

breathemexin @ 2005-11-29T13:20:00

2005-11-29T19:47:12Z

im so bored.
and starving.
im gonna find food in like 2 min.
uisfhkvhdfugbgyu

thursday
getting hair done.
excited.
mwaha
i wanna go get my nails done.
someone should pick me up.
and bring me.
blah.
its so early still.

pointless entry.

whatev.

2005-11-27T05:23:18Z

so to start off.
everyone
makes me mad.
not everyone.
but ayh so many people.
hahahahahaha
(&$@#(^*^$@!&*(^$@&*!^#@(!#(!@hjsdyuc

this weekend was just, jolly.
didnt go to school wesnday.
thursday, thanksgiving<3 loved it.
friday, stupid gay gay freezed my ass off game.
with erica<333 she slept over.
ilove her alot.
saw NIKKI FINALLY TODAY
love her so much
went out to lunch , panera<3 with nikk and jo.
did cool stuff.
saw puppies, ps i want a puggle so bad, you dont even understand.
came home, erica came back<3
we painted my room much, its gnarley.
we did other stuff.
got my computer to work again
just sitting here
i love jamie royle so much<3
tomarrow im idk.
livejournal is gay
but i like it sometimes
so.

i have alot of thoughts.
but id rather just spill em out to people like brian.
than the internet.
cause livejournals only good to ap oint when you wanna talk to something
and not want feed back/alternate opinions.
not what im looking for particularly at this moment.

yeah byee

ahim.

2005-11-23T04:08:58Z

im so tired.
i cant wait to sleep.
today would be tuesday.
didnt go to dance, i think im switching out and moving into the one tomorrow since yano im already there for 50 million hours anyway. so brittany came home on my bus today<3 she's adorable. i love it. it was cute.. hung out with some cuties then ah yea im here now really tired, pondering on whether or not i should bother attending school tomarrow since yano its a half day and we're playing like games all day, ah all the more reason to go i guess.. no dance tomorrow =] yayay. idk what im doing after school, if i go, probly. thursday is thanksgiving, im so excited. i love thanksgiving a whole lot. haha im going to ma dadds then to my grandpas with my mom after it hink and maybe sleping there ause marielle's home from college<33333 ah im gonna faint.

update, eh whenev.

i might actually be falling,

i said brrrrrrrrr its colld in heree

2005-11-19T03:46:06Z

dshmgszfzsdhszfxgzdfdSDF

its soo cold
i just got back from the varsity game with erica like 30 min ago.
it was soo freezing.
my hands are still numb.
amy spilt hot chocolate all over me like 3 times.
it was funny.
im freezing.
i have frostbite.
i hate football games
theyrrrr soo ghayy.
everyone in my gradee is gay.
cept for bffl<3 joe gonnello.
and yano, ma bitches.
most of em.
tomarrows saturday, cant say i know what im doing. im cold though. hahaha im gonna watch movies and drink soup and sleep. cause im cold. :D and tired.<3

boys are stupid.
</3

mulanE>

2005-11-14T02:41:36Z

aloha

hey babys. it's sunday night, and i'm feeling preetty pukish since i just ate like 3 times my weight in macaroni and meatballs and popcorn and hershybar. hahaha. um this past week was cool because i only went monday&tuesday, didnt go wednsday.. and had off thursday and friday. thursday i dont really remeber what i did.. OH YEAH! holy duh.. i got CONFIRMED! haha yea it was my confirmation.. michelle was my sponsor so ashley<3 was there :o) and then yeah matt joe and dylon came to the church just to make fun of me in a dress hahaha but w.e its okay.. then i went home and babysat and joe dylon matt and brandon came over like, the whole remainder of the night.. haha i love them, yeah then they lefffft and friday i went to the mall with the dabrio family :o) i love erica<3 so much. i spent ALL my confirmation money which was kind of alot, and bought so much shit.. then we came home and cleaned out my whole closet, it made me happy hahaha.. then she had to leave and go to gay fucking homophobic cheerleading so kim jackie stef and kelsey picked me up and we went to the football game. it was egh like always. spent time with jamie royle<3 i love her so much. yeah it was pretty drama-some. but what isn't in gay eighth grade, i hate eighth graders so much hahaha but w.e. then saturday i hung around all day with brielle, and joe and brandon came over.. we just hung out, busted brandons lip, punched him in the face, hahahahahahaha. it was so funny, sorry brandon. we walked to dunkin donuts.. saw my LOVE amy lynn hojnacki whoom which i love with awllszz my hearTt=] and alfie and MEGAN<3 and that cool girl danielle[; and yeah ate pizza and shat. blahblah w.e went home hung out they went home and i had a breakdown and erica was laughing at me hahahahaha and then brian got mad at me and i was calling him 5497930 times but he wouldnt answer and i had a nice conversation with ma other jamie<3 and since she's gonna be a senior next year if i go to memorial she can drive me to school sometimes, which is pretty fricken gnarley. [: yeah so i cant wait till next year even though this year is probably gonna be good, its alright so far. w.e im not even making any sense hahaha im really tired and i have a stomache ache and today i just layed around and watched IT TAKES TWO<3 and SISTER ACT<3 and BRING IT ON<3 and HOME ALONE<3 and WIZARD OF OZ<3 it was so sweet. haha yeah. im gonna go to bed soon. tomarrow ghay school and staying after for math with mah bfflz joseph gonello.

aygh aygh payce out.

breathemexin @ 2005-11-10T12:07:00

2005-11-10T17:12:43Z

eyy babyeeees.

i always forget about this thing. hahaha

soooo im just chilling. waiting for 1 o clock to come strolling around because im going to confirmation =] haha whodaa thought vicky'd be progressing in her faith and actually being allowed to recieve confirmation. lol of course i dont get to make it with friends because st als is gay but w.e lol ill see all those retards from last year. and ahh yeah then im going out to dinenrrr i thinkkk.. then i was supposed to be going to abyss with taylor an ma girls for he rbday, but i dont think im gonna get home in time for confirmation so yeah its al effed up and im pretty pissed... but w.e ahhhh yeah i lov eyou taylor<3 im sowwy..

i shall update later on.
payce out kiddie.s

wooow

2005-11-05T03:32:20Z

well w.e who cares about whats happend since i've updated last..

tonights friday night, and i <3 fridays, but today was just beaat.
after school joe and brandon came over, we hung out for a while, it was pretty tubularr.. then megan picked us up and we went to the varsity game.. ughhhh can you say ghayy ass hell..... Gay As Hell. haha eh like it was arite cause i hung out with maboyfriend erica dabrio=]<3 and mah baby jenna hughes.. i love them.. kelsey<3brittG<3shawna all those bitches.. lol eighth graders are really gay cause like.. haha idk they think they're cool so like when your with them they act a certain way, and then when your in front of people they act totally differnt.. hmm. and its really fuckking annoying it pisses me off so much haha but w.e hopefully they'll grow up before highschool so i dont end up murdering myself.[: jeeeez, lykee gr0w da fcuK up sarrrrreeyouslay.. pshh

w.e
boys can suck my third.
suckit
suckit
suckitggood
suckithard
suckit
suckit

i'm disctusing.

so are you prolly so stfu.

kthnxsnigbabyzbye.

:o(

2005-10-30T03:14:59Z

heey guys. i havn't updated this thing since last weekend, haha i always forget bouts it. well yeah the week was arite, long and dreadful, but arite. i dont really remember what happend, so it must not've been anything special.

friday, yesterday, after school? i hung out at home for a little, ashlee=] came and visited me.. michael took us to mikeys to get his fball jersey so i could wear it to homecoming that night, then to mcdonalds.. then i went to taylor bottomlys<3 house. i havnt hung out with that woman in the longest time, i missed her alot. danielle and alyssa were there, we hung out for a little then me alyssa and taylor went to the fball game, saw everyone like usual.. an jojo=] was there cause it was vs howell.. so hung out with her, saw justin posten and john.. it was nice. jackson won woowoo. of course. jamie royle<3 amy hojnacki<3 theyre always a pleasure to see at games=] some hotkids from school were there, aka my bfffllzz. jackie kels kim stef all them hookers. some fagits like joe dylon larry matt and brandon were there too. actually brandon and dylon arn't fagits cause they were the only ones who were actuallay nice to me. unlike effing larry who likse sstealing my cellphone/house keys and not giving them back for an hour.. and joe who still right now has my house keys lol.. but whatev, they cool. ah yea then just hung outside memorial for like 2 hours and walked around inside the school untill alyssas dad came and brought us to burger king and then i slept at taylors<3

saturday, today, we woke up early and went to new york<3 for taylors early birphday. with her mom ashley, her boyfriendd and this cool woman her moms friend lol. we were there allllll day. and it was fun we shopped the whole time and walked around, even though im sick. idk whats wrong with me my nose just keeps on running and its real stuffy too and im freezing and i have no voice and im real conjested.. bad cold i guess. argh. yeah so now im home. its been fun.

tomarrow im sleping real late. then going to frightfest at some point with michael cause, idk he wants to go. haha i gues ill see if anyone else wants to join me.

im so tired, goodnight.

breathemexin @ 2005-10-23T20:50:00

2005-10-24T00:57:09Z

this weekend was good.

friday applebees with kim stef jack jess kels jenna & mike.
it was so fun.
i love them so much.

then erica and brit picked me up.
went to ericas.
danced around & stuff.
watched porn.
not even gonna talk about you know what..lolol
slept

saturday went to CHURCH @ 9.
ugh it was so boring.
saw all saint als kids<3
missed them, brandon got in so much trouble.
hahaha by father scott and some bald bitch.
it was pretty funny.

ate bagels<3
hung out at ers.
went to their cheer prax in some barn that gave me absolutley no service. lol
then got ready.
went to tom&pats party.
it was alright.
christinechristinechristine<3
we humped liek there was no tomarrow, let me tell you.
diana even joined in a bit, it was gnarley.
brian tripped me and my knees are fractured.
i was litterally 'dripping sweat'. mwahaha
saw JAMIE<3 hung out with her pretty much the whole time.
it was goodgoodgooood.

today woke up early
went to the mall for family pics
hahaha ghay.
it was annoying.
golden bell diner<3 mmm
then went to the englishtown auction with denis
it was pretty fun, i love those.
then we got icecream and mcdonalds.
went home, hung out.
megan came over, stayed for a few hours.
downloaded great music.

DO I LOOK LIKE A SLUT?
no no i just went to church the other day.
hahahahaha its our favorite song.
sighhhhhhhh. lol

mm.
boyfriends are nice.
actually whenver i say that i end up regretting it.
cause either i want one bad.
or i don want one bad.
ahhhhh

breathemexin @ 2005-10-21T23:02:00

2005-10-22T03:09:06Z

so its like 11 and im still effing waiting for erica and britt to pick me up. lol

tonight was so much fun.

alright well after school i chilled did nothing.
then had dance well from like 6-630 because it was just solo prax.

last night me and joanna left early from dance and went to TIPTAPTOE
and took all our friends hiphop class. it was amazzinggg
i had so much fun, im going back next thursday[:

so ne who..

after dance i got ready, jackie her shhweet brother mike hahah and kim picked me up. we went to applebees!!! =]=] me jack kim kels stef jenna and jessica. it was soo fucking fun. we got like kicked out becaquse we were being soo loud and obnoxious like always and everyone was like complainging about us. hahahaha then i snuck out and told the watress that it was kims brithday. lolol so they sang to her and brought us free cake and shiot. it was the best. then kim kels stef and jess left and me jack jenna and mike walked to barns n nobles. it was so funny. okay we were like so hyper and there was like shopping carts so i sat it in and mike was trying to push me but we were stuck in mud so then jackie thinks shes funny if she TIPS ME OVER hahahahaha and i went flying and it was just hillarious. then we got in the book store and read all these retard books and recorded them. and then started singing whyy doo you bulldddd me uppp buttterrcupppp babyy just to lett me downnn. outside. and then this liek black guy started dancing and singing with us. then these OTHER people in the parking lot were. we seriously had like the whole parkinglot singing and dancing with us. it was amazing hahaha. then on the ride home we like passed my house because i was too busy making recordings of chubs, skinny, and russian sourcrout nipples. hahahaha they all went back to stefs to sleep cept for me and jenna cause we have GHEY confirmation church in the morning hahaah. so im sleeping at ericas with britt and were going. then to toms party where i get to see JAMIE<3 and MORGAN<3 mwahahah =]=]. im STILLLL waiitn gfor them to get here and its lke 10 affter 11. there at some cheer party and ericas mom is like never leaving lol. laddeeedahh im so bored. i guess ill go wait outside now. hhahahaaha

i love my friends, so much.
life is pretty good you could say.
and its funny because theres so much wrong.
but ive learned to pay no attention to the fucked up shit.
and just live for the moment.

breathemexin @ 2005-10-19T21:43:00

2005-10-20T01:45:42Z

hey ladies&gents.

uh todays wednsday.
tomarrows thursday.
wow. hmm haha

today i hung out @ jackies with zia stef kim kels jack & shawna.
like every other day of my life. :o) <33
school was alright, stayed after.. hmmm

tomarrow schooool; dance then going to tip tap toe to take hiphop with jojo[:
then sleep.

friday sleeping at ericas=]=] with brit.
then ahm. church in the mornign at 9 !
for confirmation practice shiz hahaha
then going to toms partay. yayee.

okee okee bye.

Attention! Attention!
May I have all your eyes and ears to the front of the room,
if only, if only for one second.

This table has taken a turn for the worst.
Rock bottom and over the edge
well it's not like it hurts that much anyway.
Upside down and inside out.
When I leave here I'm going alone.
Well it's not like, it not like it hurts much anyway.

Attention! Attention!
May I have all your eyes and ears to the front of the room,
if only, if only for one second.
Will you hear what I have to say?
Oh, did I mention when I see you it stings like hell?
To the fact that we could have something that'll never happen.
Will you hear what I have to?

breathemexin @ 2005-10-16T17:38:00

2005-10-16T21:39:45Z

i'm bored.

my weekend was nice, some family bonding.. didnt hang out with my friends, but it was alright.
im just laying around al day.
gonna finish watching the game, then find a movie and eat some chinese food.

oke this entrys a pointless bore.
but comment it anyway.[:

<boy/3

holla hollaaa

2005-10-12T02:13:46Z

mm hokay. ugh so ghey. i wasn't aware that there was no dance tonight, so i show up there and there like go home. argh, waited like 20 minutes for michael to pick me up, we ate at the bar, bufffs<3 mmmm goood. then michael talked to me for like 2 hours about random shiz, gotti shiz, hahaha. if he really gets all that money hes buying me a puppy, no lie. he knows it too lol hes my bitch anyways so yeah. i cant wait till no school thursday. i have a very busy rest of the week/weekend. today school was alright. wore these really comfy pants mmm then i got white paint on them in painting and there black so it didnt look good. argh haha but ittll come out i hope. ahh i feel so fat its not even funny. like seriously i try soo hard not to eat like an animal, but i just give in. food is my weakness. i cant take itt. ughhhhhh i need to like go on slimfast medication. or do something, its really getting out of hand.

plans:; im not gonna update for a while probly next week so looky hear kids..

tomarrow || ill be uhm at school; then home. then probly tanning with meg<3 then dancing from like 7 to 845 or something. then having a sleepover with JAMIE LYNN ROYLE<3<3<3 yayayay im excited. i miss her so much.[:

thursday || no school [: hanging out with jamie, doing whateveerrrrrs. then dance from like 545 tooo 930. yeah then w.e home and what not

friday || schoooool, then i was gonna go to G.A with everyone but i cant cause its my aunts bday so i have to sleep at hers and my uncles in marlboro. yeah going there around 6ish. then sleeping over....

saturday || family party there at my uncles all day. then michaels picking me up at like 6. im making him take me to see the puppies =]=] pet paradise, my second home. haha then he wants me to go to GA with him just to ride kingda ka with him? even though we both rode it like 999 times. whatev, why not. then perhaps hanging out with kim brit stef and all the girlss.

thenn perhaps getting together with amy<33love to hangout into sunday? or maybe not. who even knows haha. should be a funfilled week though. ahhhhhh

yeahh and im lonley, bite me.

<333

yo GOTTIS!

2005-10-11T02:17:32Z

AIIGHT. LISTEN UP.

bahahahh. alright well. lets see. todayy i got up early like 8. taylor!! was supposed to come with me to the gym but her mom was an assfacevaginalickingcuntbag . ITS OKAY I STILL LOVE YOU TRACE ]] decided to tell her she couldnt come =] way to reuwin my day. anyways. yeah so i went to the gym. fell asleep in the pit for like 2 hours haha then woke up was ont he computerr worked the office. then taught a class. ahhh left went to the mall tryed returnign my srtraightener, did it let me? NO. ughughughguh. yeaa then met michael me and gee went with him. went back to his hizz. watched ferris beulers day off =] i love that movie hahaha then made him drive me mike and g alllllllllllll the way to pet paradise. just to see the puppys. hahaha i have him whipped. ah then home depot for a little, stole this key ring thing haha. then DANCEDDDD till 915 in a trust co. teeshirt and longlong boy shorts. everyone was like wtf get out of here haha. yeah now im home, i have to do math homework. after i watch laguna and tell you about this.....

sorry guys, wsnt exactly suposed to shair that with EVERYONE on the internet. hahahahaha but you know what was said here. lol

now that i just wrote liek nine pages/ PEACE OUT.

meow meow kittty cat

2005-10-10T02:35:24Z

HELLO. i just got home :o) actually like 15 minutes ago. yesterday was Obserd.

after i got home from stefs, i literally slept ALL day. i had plans to redo my room and do all this hightec stuff, i crashed. haha it was kinda funny, it felt soo good to sleep. yes then today i slept till like 12. gottt uppp hung around the house. then went to lowes. it was pretty cool picked out colors for my room and ishh. thenn ATE AT APPLEBEES. demoloshed those boneless buffs. [ as me and diana<3 would say ] hahahah. it was ammazzzing. then mother drove me to brians. hung out with some doood justin. brian and chip. loveee herr hahha. ahh yea now im home. and im tired. but im not gonna sleep early again i swwwware. ahhh im kinda hungry. perhaps ill eat in a little hmmmmm ugh i was just informed i have to babysit tomarrow morning. agh early getting up. but actually im gonna go to the gym i think. and watch g there. i needa get into practice sometime this life. yeahh alright im gonna go now. hahah i have such an insperastion to write in this thing now, cause i know SOMEONE actually reads it [ erica dabrio ] stalker. hahahah

</3

breathemexin @ 2005-10-08T12:38:00

2005-10-08T16:45:25Z

Hiiiiii. I'm bored, but i'm just really in the mood to sit home and not do anything. Last night i slep at stefs<3 hung out with stef kim brit kels larry & dylon. then kels an kim left and we just hung out, then slept for like 2 hours. it was cool, im tired as shitt. I think i'm redoing my room today [: which kind of excites me, even though i have like 0 energy to do anything. And it feels like its sunday for some reason. I wanna do something later tonight, i just dont know what. hmm plans. I love pizza rolls. and arizona. ahhh<3.

So for the most part, school is alright. Im really getting sick of it though, like seeriously, im so happy we're off monday. Everyones just so dumb, it pisses me off how annoying and immature some people can be. Still single, yup obviously, annn i dont even care anymore. i've given up on the whole wanting a boyfriend thing, it's pointless. pimp4l. just joking. this is ghey. i hate livejournal, as you can see i suffer from bi-polarness, no lie, fucking bye.

potato chipsss, so effing addictingg

2005-10-06T19:55:56Z

ayyyyyyy kiddos.

so last time i updated was like saturday?
well today be thursday.

hmmmmmm

monday was school, gheygheygheyy.

AFTERSCHOOL=FUN.
went to jackies after school with ma girls.
and whoever. i dont really remember every deettail.
we had lowts of fun. me jack kim kels jenna & zia.
thennnn laterrerer ericaa came. we all had fun.
walked to A plus at like 1030 at night with brandon
and mike. saww britt at st als? hahahah

yeah then kims muddah picked us all up. with stef&britttG. we slumber party'd it up at kims, it was hott.

TUESDAY=FUN.
woke up, hung at kims for a while with everyone.
leftttt with britt and er. went with britt to get her hurr did.
hung outtt. went to burgerking and shiz. me and er had fun with raquel. hahahahah i love erica.
uhhm yeayuh. it was BRIANS BIRTHDAY<3=] called him and stuff, good stufffff

thennnn we went home. i hung out with megan here for a little and did homeeworkkkk
then stefs mom came to pickkks me up with awll the gurrrls.
we slumbered AGAIN but at stefs<3 it was fun as helll.
weegee board? scary as shit. but tottaly tubular. loveeeed it
thenn we woke up and walked all the way to farleys, just me kim brit zia an steff.
hung there for a while, then i left with megz and nikki. hung at my hosue for a while.
cleaned my room, went to dance, thennn homedepot to get paint colors for ma room with denis=] and then yea home.

todayyy school wss ghey. cause gaymotherfuckershitfaceGABBY. is a fag and she lieks to call me fat and ugly all day. and annoy the shit out of me. fukcing gayasshell.

besides that it was okay, hate humidity, diediediediedie

now i am hanging out with gianna.
eating my brains out.
eyo fattstuff.
hm yayuh. megans gonna be here in a lil
ill cook her dindin, well go tanning, shel bring me to dance[:

hm yes.
iightiightiight
peace mann

updating (=

2005-10-02T05:34:56Z

hmm so.
today is October 1st.
Saturday Night.
well Sunday. it's 1:22 AM.

let's see:: FRIDAYY i ahh. went home on brittyg's<3 bus. hung out with herr (= we walked to burger king. saw these kids i met at alannas one time *Slipknot. [ hahahahchristine. ] jimmy and gary i think. or their friend idk. they like ate all my food haha but it was okay. then we walked backkkah to her home. and erica<3 came over. we got alll dressed and ish an then stef&kim picked us up and we hiddedd up frightfest* withhhhh jackiee kelseyy jessicaa uhh brandonn joe larry dylonn and like a million other people. it was kind of ghey. because eevryone was being kind of ghey. so me britt erica and a little bit of jackie haha kind of departured from everyone and hung out with kyle sidran? and joe brown? haha it was nice. i saw justin!=]=]=]. anddd yeah rode kingda ka like 82917 times. haha it was phat. thenn ahmm we all went home cept i slept over britttttys=]

hmm and today [ SatURDAY. britts muddah drove me home earlyy while britt was at cheersss. went ot jersey mikes. fuaght with ma mom caz shes a faggit=] and atee and then had dance for a half hour. it was so effing hardcore. i pretty much almost like passed out. yeah so then i came home and got ready. and denis took me Back to brittanys=] we hung outttt. me her and court. then erica came over. hung out some more. walked to Stop&sHoPp. hahaha it was pretty funny. me running after michales truck and stuyff. MIIIICHHALL. bahahaha. yeah so then we got icecream cause we're skinny. jk. and then ate some pizza and walked bck to britts.. her hillarious cousin who had woken me up the same morning to saying " WANT SOME BLUEBERRY PIE"!?!? hahahaha and " i got soo fuckedd up last nightttt, got drunkkk, smoked some blunttss, then i fuckedd some girll " and im like half asleep like who the fuck is this person. hahha yeah. so he gave us a lift to FriGhtfeSt. once again. and ahh yeah carride = almost died but it was all good with the sick beats. :p frightfest was fun. me er brit court briiansicaface. kyle stevvenn hung out. saw jillieebeans<3 haha our gmas were bff yo, dont hate. :p and yea it was coooool.

now currently i just got off the telephone. with a fagit[: jkjkjk. and im sitting here like falling asleep writing thissss. and yeah. tomarrow as in SUNDNAAYY i have to wake up at like 10 cause britts picking me up at like 10 30 and i have to go to justice complex to watch her gammmme. and ah yeah. haha it should be cute me just sitting there by myself but hey you know its all good. then grandpas<3 for his bdayyy. [: in South Knollsss. yea so ahh. we have off school tuesay and weddsnday and im so pumped. i love russasana. [ sp? no ] yeah. okeeeeee okeeeeeeeee okay man. no really like totally awesome like tubular man like peace out.

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2005-09-29T18:53:30Z

so i dont write in this thing much anymore. egh, i have like no time for anything anymore. between school and dance and evvvverything, blah. okay so school has been okay. but im getting pretty sick of it. theres so much drama. like its gay middle school. why shouldnt everyone just shut up and stop tryna act like theyre 25. its so gay. yea but i love my friends. every day after school i go out walking. whether its hanging out with britt erica courtney and them at stop&shop and getting yelled at haha. or walking to emerald woods to my love jackies house and meeting zia [brownstuff] half way. ahahah yeaa. its been fun. yesterday me and zia met at the funeral home and walked to jackies. hung out with jackie zia kim stef kelsey and her cousin jessica. brandon was there for a little too. hung out took pictures ate food, it was nice. then i had to leave and go to dancee. i must really like it or something being i put up with these crazy hours. blegh. i say i hate it but hey. ahhm yea today i didnt go to school. went online and found out brandon didnt go either haha. i was so tired i had to like sleep all day and catch up with myself. i have dance at 5 30 to 9 30. todays my like longest day. i was gonna walk to jackies with zia and britt but its real nasty out and i look like shxt so idk if im gonna. and im real tired/hungry haha. yeaa so stuff with me and justin is real chill. were pretty close friends now, and i loove itt. i saw him at ah the varsity game. carried him on my back for like an hour haha. speaking of the varsity game, it was pretty okay even though i hate them. i saw everyone naturally, amy<3 jamie who i miss so much. all school kids. i went with zia&shari. loove them. yeaaa. so like im confused about this whole wanting a boyfriend thing. cause i see all my friends with em. and im like dang i want one of those. but then im always like ew no i dont. cause there so gay. and idk. im better off alone. i guess. im so confused about the whole thing. but w.e theres no point in stressing about it, if somethings supposed to happen, it'll happen. and i have been getting into these like moods. i guess because im like for the most part ALWAYS in a good mood. and dont let things bother me and stuff. so once in a while all that like anger and frustration i always aviod builds up and like shoots out everywhere. hahaha like last night i was so evil. i just get really irritable and everything annoys me. and i have like no tollerance for anything. i hate when i get like that, i cant help it though. eh yea i guess thats all i have to say for now. that ive written like a novel. but whattevver. peace

breathemexin @ 2005-09-20T15:34:00

2005-09-20T19:44:41Z

ah. i havn't been in this mad of a mood for the longest time. i'm seriously never in a bad mood anymore, i think it's a total waste of time, especially when you could be prancing around in a good mood. but this i just cant shake off that easy. im so mad/sad/pissed/hurt/etc. i cant stand this. it's not even worth getting all into detail. ill just say im in the worst mood, my hair/makeup is so messed up and my head is rediculously pounding. and now i have to go clean the entire house so i dont get sent back to st als. LOL. fucking not.:)

breathemexin @ 2005-09-18T03:01:00

2005-09-18T07:04:29Z

its 3 in the mouurrrrninnggg. and im board, and im like tired so im gonna go to sleep in a little. denis is over, him and momma just brought me a wawa sub and arizona iced tea baby<3 second time today haha. thats alll i ate all day, 2 of that mwaha. ahh tammaarrah idk what im doing. i was sposta go to church with al & then out to lunch but hes a butt so we're doing it next weekend. yeeea school monday = gay. i hope its freeeezing. like actuall windy NON HUMID fall weather<3 i looove fall. anyways im tired so im going to retire to thee bedrooom. later<3

breathemexin @ 2005-09-16T15:37:00

2005-09-16T19:40:21Z

brandon =fagface. 4L4L4L4L

breathemexin @ 2005-09-14T19:10:00

2005-09-14T23:15:10Z

today was pretty hmph. haha woke up, rough/weird/shocking/interesting morning. went to schooool. rememberd that chris was moving which is indeed sad, but HES ALSO MARKED FOR DIGGEY CAMMERA FOR SECOND MARKING PERIOD. and ive been looking for a spot in that class for like 9 years and now i have a spot cause hes moving at the end of the first marking period =D=D=D. well not that hes moving, but i have a spot in the class noww.. ANYWAY.

soo idk when i last updated. yesterday & the day before wa sjust sschool, monday hung with nik meg jo amanda & kim for a little. eysterday went shopping=] today after school hung out with matt and sean outside for a while, delt with some other gay ass shit. then yeah im here now. freezing waiting for meglee to come over so we can go eat and visit diana at hollbrook?=] and yaa. have to still do my homework, and change, im uncomfortable. and im real tired and gotsttoo pee so mmmm later! :p.